Michael is 5

Today is Michaels birthday. He is 5. I'm not sure I'm ready to look at him like a little boy yet, but realize that I don't have a choice. He is so indipendant, strong, and loving. I look at him and wonder what if... But to live in a "what if" world, makes me miss the one he's in. So that is something I need to quite doing.

Last night, we had a pool party for him. As soon as he hit the water, he was off. The ONLY time he wanted to be held on to was when he was either jumping in the pool, or being thrown around. Other than that, he was swimming on his own. He was (is) amazing. I realized last night that although there are things he may never do, there are things he will do better than anyone else can. Now the task set before me is to give him every opertunity to succed in any and all areas he can. It is a daunting, but wonderful task.

Today my son turns 5! The time has flown by. Seems like just yesterday I was wondering if he was going to make it through the night, and now, I'm wondering how I'm going to keep up with him. It is a good change.

I grip and bitch about parenting a lot, and still honestly don't know that I would do it again if I could change the past, but there are moments that melt your heart. When Mike says "love you", or gives you a kiss. When Greg says, "Mommys tiggy" (mommys silly) Stuff like that. I don't know... Kids are in a league all their own.