Change is a comin...

Well, where to begin?  I think the title says it all.  I'll start with the rugrats.  

Still only two and NO I'm not expecting!!!  But the two I have wow....  

Greg is growing by leaps and bounds.  He's huge, and talks a lot.  Recently he's started trying to go down the steps alone.  I'm sure he'd be able to do it, but it makes me a nervous wreach.

Mike just got a new walker, and is also growing like a weed.  He starts weekly PT in Feb.  and although it means MORE driving for me.  It'll be really good for him. 

House wise.  Although I would love to have a ranch house.  At the moment, we are staying right where we are, so that means doing some major interior redesigning.  Tearing out both stair wells, and making them bigger. Thankfully I designed a large landing at the top of the stair well between the first and second sories.  Adding 2 chair lifts $1200 -$2000 a peice, and making the basement door our front door.  (Hum.. maybe moving the front door down stairs and the basement door up here?)  Also, concreating the parking area and the area under the front porch.  A lot to do, but well worth it.  

So I guess the change is centered around our kids, mainly Mike, but that's the way of it in our house.  Most everything is centered around making Mikes enviornment as equal as Gregs.  A challange at times, a hartach at others, but the way of it for us.  

I do find reliefe in the knowledge that most everyone who takes the time to get know Mike really enjoys him, and that one day, if not in this life than in the next he won't need a walker or braces, or tubes in his body.  When we all get to Heaven, he'll be purfect, and God will have kept track of every tear that we have shed for Mike, every prayer that's ever been said for him.  That is a great comfort to me.   

Truth and friendship...

A friend who is far away is sometimes much nearer than one who is at hand. Is not the mountain far more awe-inspiring and more clearly visible to one passing through the valley than to those who inhabit the mountain?
Kahlil Gibran 

Words of wisdom...

Love and pain are oppisit sides of a coin, you can't have one w/o the other-my friend Elizabeth

things are good and I'm a looser

Ok, so I've taken a break.  Reflexed a bit, read 4 really thick books, and spent a lot of time tickling my boys.  I am sad to say that although I read 4 books in a week and a half, i have spent NO time reading the Bible.  

I have spent NO time in prayer.  

I have spent NO time in studying the Bible, journaling, singing prais songs or even listening to christian music.  (Music is my favorit way I worship, and I love to sing out loud when I'm home alone.  I wouldn't subject anyone else to it.)  I'm often moved to tears when I sing to God.  (at home or church doesn't matter)  It's the words, the message.  It moves me.  But I have not sung in a long time.  

I've found other things, less worthy things, to fill my time.  (Not that tickeling my kids is in anyway less important, but I havn't even mentioned Jesus or God to them in over a month, and I tuck both of them into bed almost everynight!!!)  What is wrong with me?  Why am I so easily distracted by fiction books, but when it comes to reading my Bible (Which is thinner than anyone of the 4 "fiction" books I devoured,) I havn't the will power to pick it up.  I'm only human is such a joke of an answer.   In any of the trials in my life, I have fallen into God, but right now things are "good" and I'm a looser.  

I know God is there, He has never left me.  But I'm not interested in Him at the moment.  Although once the words are out, I will say, they are a lie.  I am still interested in God and what I know He can do.  It's more accurate to say I'm scared!!!  I'm scared of what I would have to give up to follow Him 100%.  I'm scared of the reaction of my friends and family.  I'm scared that I would be labeled a "Jesus Freak" or that I'd "been hit on the head with the Jesus stick"  or what have you.  I'm scared to take a lead that isn't mine to take, to step on toes, to cause a rucas.  Most of all, I'm scared of failing.  Of being only 1 person.  Of not being enough.  Not having enough to give or be.    So that's that.  

I'm outa here for today.  I have a son who wants to be tickled.  

With him there is no fear of not being enough. 

I'm outa here...

I'm taking a sabatical from this and my facebook account for a while.  I need to reprioritize my life.  I'm off balance at the moment, and am not exactily sure how to get back into balance.  It's going to be a rough ride (for me at the least and my family at the most).  So I would appreciate A LOT of prayer in this time in my life.  Thanks.  Thea

4 girls+ 2 boys+2 parents+ 1 dog...

4 teens+2 boys+ 2 parents+ 1 dog= crazy full house:)

Wow what a way to bring in the new year.  

I have 4 teenage girls that spent the night with us.  Kayla, Layla, Brette and Nessa.  Brette and Ness are neices, and Kayla and Layla are 2nd cousins or something like that.  Twins and I'm sad to say I can't tell them apart although they look nothing alike.  The youngest is Brette at 12 the other 3 are 13.  Needless to say it was an interesting night.  Most days, I would love to have this many kids running around.  Our boys are having a blast, and Mike watched the ball drop last night with us.  It was great.  Bob and I drank some wine, and the "kids" had sparkleing grape juice.  We all survived the night, and Bob is handeling the extra's really well.  Maybe fostering would work out after all.  

2009 will prove to be an interesting year.  Full of ups and downs, of that I have no doubt.