Big boy undies...

Today is day two for Mike to be in big boy undies. So far we've had 3 accidents in two days, but at least one today was caused by my un-attentiveness. There was one yesterday, and two today. However, yesterday we went to a friends house and where constantly asking him to go potty, and today we went to Tammie and Jans, and Bob was outside, I was inside with them the bulk of the day. Needless to say it was productive, but a bit stressful. Tomorrow will be better, and there's no going back to pull ups for Mike. Of course this means I have two full extra changes of clothing with me at all times, but if that's what it takes, that's what it takes, and that's what I'm willing to do.

Black Friday...

Black Friday!!!! This is the first yr. I went shopping at the break of dawn on black Friday. I only went to one store, and the lot was FULL. While walking in I was really questioning my sanity. There wasn't a single cart in the store when I walked in. I actually went out and found a cart pusher in the parking lot and asked for one of his 2 carts, then began my shopping. I made a game plan earlier in the week, and checked to make sure the "deals" I was interested in where actually good deals. I'm glad I did. I found one item that I wanted to purchase, that was listed as a deal, but it was the normal price. An oversight by the company, I'm sure ;) Anyway, I got my in-laws totally done, my mom, Bob, both boys and even remembered eggs and cinnamen rolls, for breakfast. It was a crazy morning, but a good one.

Wish me luck...

My life is full of contradiction.

I realize this, but hope that putting it out there in the public viewing realm, I may be able to become more steady in the way I think, act and behave. Basically, I'm not particularly happy with the way I'm living my life right now, and am striving to again find the joy and peace I seem to have lost. Wish me luck :)

Mike and Greg...

I never cease to be amazed by my children.

This past weekend, my niece celebrated her 13th. birthday with a pool party. At this party, BOTH my boys decided that swimming on their own was a good idea. This isn't really a new thing, but I still find it an amazing thing. The coolest part was when Greg was encouraging Mike, and cheering him on. I am so proud of the fact that Greg has compassion, and is proud when Mike does a good job. Don't get me wrong they are still boys. They fight, hit, bite and kick each other some times. But when they are good, encouraging to each other, and playing nicely together.... Those are the times I'm glad there's two of them.

Today, while going up the stairs for nap time. (Yes, they both still take naps.) Greg climbed the steps like Mike. Then when he made it to the top, he encouraged Mike, and came back down to where Mike was and started up again. Just like Mike. It was so cool.

I hope that Greg will always find joy in celebrating Mikes achievement, and I hope that Mike will find joy in celebrating Greg's.

Life isn't fair...

Life isn't fair.

This is an accepted statement, but the past two days have just reinforced this for me. Last night, Bob and I went to Columbus to a CP Parents meeting, and while there, saw a woman who has a daughter who has much more server CP than Mike. As if this wasn't enough, she herself was visially challenged. What is the purpose of that? What was God thinking?

Then today, I find out that a friends child who has DD issues has been diagnosed with lukema and is in Childrens Hospital in Columbus undergoing chemo. She's strong and so is her son, but comeon!! Why? Where is God?

Yes, I am blaming God. He's all powerful, and could step in at any minute and stop all the shit that's going on, but yet he doesn't. Why? (Seriously, I'm looking for answers here not just venting.) I just don't understand anymore. The more I open my eyes and look around, the more I wonder who's in charge, and where are they?